learning curve

i have so many things i need to get documented but it seems i can't catch life as it whizzes past me and doesn't even stop to say hello. i built in a few weeks of our school year as a learning curve to figure out life as we approach our everyday differently. it seems as though it's taking me quite a while to find the groove all the while our everyday still has expectations of it's own. 

i'm struggling with figuring it all out. with finding time to do laundry, and learn, and do dishes, and learn, and tend to a demanding 18 month old, and learn, and stop the quarreling, and learn, and run errands, and learn. the list goes on.

but one thing i am beginning to see in it all is one of the very best things about schooling from home. it's that ALL these things are learning. if i can just approach our tasks and time all as learning. it's all intertwined really. learning in and through everything. we are essentially our children's biggest teachers whether we like it or not. and it doesn't stop at the school table. 

and it's moments like today when grey found me in the bathroom and said these words, "mommy, i pinky promise i am going to obey you the first time all day today because i love you." that's when i realize maybe a little of what we're learning is getting in that heart. it's the genuine simplicity of a child and his mind processing his everyday life through the bigger picture. just a small grace of today. 

but there are graces all around if i would open my eyes more often. brothers learning to respect each other, learning to forgive. character building at it's finest. and it doesn't stop with the children. i believe i just may be learning more than i ever dreamed.

grey is growing and i want to watch it with eyes wide open. while floors are being swept, his heart is in motion. we talk and he takes in a little more. what he'll do with it only God knows. and that's precisely why i will struggle through our days here at home. 

learning all the while.