finding words

as our days move forward, we become ever increasingly aware of our need. parenthood sure exposes that ten fold. over and over in our hearts we are constantly asking the Lord what He would have us do with these lives He has placed in our care. and ever increasingly so, we are reminded of our lack of power. of our weakness. of our utter need for His grace day to day.

and the beautiful part of it all is the strength that pours forth from the weakness He exposes. 

as i look back over 5 plus years of parenthood, i see a very clear picture of the Lord bringing me to the place that i thrive time and time again. on my knees. on my face. before God Almighty. 

i sat with my older two just this morning to explain God's plan for their relationship with each other. and as i used words that a five and three year old could understand, i realize how simple God really makes it for us. maybe it's the purist in me, but when we strip all the fancy garb down to words that He uses over and over in scripture, it's really quite plain and simple. 

 we make it complicated. sin makes it complicated. messy, rather.

as i fight feelings of insecurity in decisions we make for our family, i find myself on my knees again. and then it's all so clear. so crystal clear. when i look to the right and to the left is when it all becomes so blurry. so fuzzy. when i redirect my heart is when it all focuses up just right and my confidence is restored. in Him.

we walk this journey of faith alongside others as well. so many we love deeply. we find ourselves in community with other believers that are experiencing the greatness of God just as we are. i find myself in tears almost daily as i listen and see His power in them and my heart is encouraged far beyond what words could do justice. we serve a God bigger than our minds can possibly conceive. He is able. He makes us able.

so whether it's within our family of five or extended to our brothers and sisters in Christ, He is working mightily. so very mightily that it physically overwhelms me.  as we trudge through, we are constantly remembering His faithfulness in all things. we look around and can only declare the evidence is His work in and through.

praise God that He is so far outside of what we can imagine. praise God for allowing us to experience even a taste of that day to day. how i long to be with Him in His presence but here and now i am experiencing the God of the universe moment by moment. and He makes those moments to be so much more than what my little head could possibly dream up.