processing

Matthew and I have been blessed with some really good quality time lately. And by really good, I mean REALLY good. {side note: I may have mentioned it before but Matthew is so incredibly helpful to me in fleshing things out in my life. He helps me get out what's swimming around in my head and make sense of it. I have a really hard time doing this on my own. Thank goodness God gave him to me.} In those times I have been trying to put into words what is going on in my heart but it just isn't coming easy. 

I just finished up an amazing study on Hebrews. It is SO much to process and I have been trying for weeks on end to wrestle with all the knowledge God has poured into me. The truth is Jesus came to this earth as man being fully God and fulfilled everything that was required by God so that I could have a relationship and an inheritance with Him. I am taking the understanding of who Jesus is and what He accomplished on my behalf into how I am supposed to hold fast to the hope that I have in Him. I want so badly to be obedient but fall short ever so often.

As I was driving to Wal-Mart today, I found my ipod buried under a million veggie tales cds and plugged her in. Much to my surprise I chose a Matt Papa album. Oh the truth that man can preach through beautiful music! I am constantly humbled in worshiping with him. Anyhow, as I was listening to one of my favorites I realized all that was in my heart, he had already put to song. And then the tears came. 

Hymn in C by Matt Papa

God of love You came to earth

Born in a manger, the incarnate Word

Full of grace and full of truth

You healed the leper, You made all things new

Religion despised Your word of love

Condemned You to die in Your innocence 

A crown of thorns and mockery

Were Yours my Savior, my precious King

Stained with blood and bruised with pain

The Lamb of God on a cross of shame 

Never before and never again

Was love so great, was death so grim

There on the hill You died for me

you took my sin, gave me liberty

I'll never boast but in Your cross

And all my gains I now count as loss

When sins they rob my heart of joy

And condemnation seems to steal even more

This I recall, You rose again

And I rose with You, hallelujah amen

So if I live in want, or die in shame

To live is You and to die is gain 

I in You and You in me

My God, my brother, my identity

Were I tempted with the best of earth 

All it's pleasures and all it's gold

And if fame in all it's kingdoms

Was in my hands to hold

I'd scorn it all for You've given me

The treasure of Your Son

And now I'm richer than the richest

For You've given me Your love